When something goes off in their lives, most people choose to flee the country, distance themselves from the source of the stress, change something about them in order to create the illusion that they are starting over. Even if they are just making a small change in the chapter of their lives, so they can go on with newfound confidence and strength.
I’m the kind of person who likes to alter their appearance when the emotional baggage has become too much to bear, or when I’ve come out of a difficult problem a winner. The right thing to do is to face a problem head on, but when you’ve dived into the battle and have come out alive, a bit weaker, but still strong enough to face another obstacle, you might want to look a bit different like you feel. You want to look like the survivor you are.
The first change I ever made to myself. A drastic one, after I came out a vicious internal “battle” was to go full blonde. My hair is my weakness, in a way, and I felt like as a blonde I was able to show that this is the new me, the survivor.
And I’ve done it again.
In life, from what I’ve gathered so far, you go through one obstacle, one battle, after the other and they never stop coming. They come in different ways and forms and you adapt and evolve like you have to in every situation. You try to fight them with confidence and do you best, so they won’t pull you down. Sometimes you win and sometimes you lose.
Recently, I had a breakdown. I am not ashamed to admit it, since we all have them from time to time when everything has become too much. It happened to me, but I am better, it was another lesson to add to my ‘live life to the fullest list’. And because of this, I decided that this version of myself has shorter hair, is more mature and takes good care of her needs and wants. Puts herself as high as she puts her family, loves herself enough not to stress out and cause unneccessary anxiety.
This version of myself, the improved one is this one and I hope you like her as much as I do. It’s still a work in process, because I truly believe that I can become even better, but for now… I kind of like her. She seems tough, patient, driven, a true hustler.
Here’s to the new me, with a lot less baggage to carry!
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